I always have lesser courage and character to write about the glorious Quraan, Islam and my beloved Prophet S.A.W. because there is nothing in my account to be saying worthy about all these glorious signs of the Almighty Allah.

I have no idea that since how long I have been trying to understand the message and working to implement it. Yes being a human being my weaknesses are excessive, especially when the surrender of pride, ego and self is very difficult.

No human being can claim that he/she is perfect but I can not even claim that I am anything. The material successes can escape from the world but how can I hide it from myself that my sins are making me a loss oriented concern that looks so profitable due to my adaptation of material accounting standards of life? 

Being a Muslim Quraan’s relation with me is strong but how strong I have a relation with Quraan, I can’t say. It looks so hypocritical when I quote Quraan’s verses somewhere but I don’t implement it on and by my own. I know when we put Quraan’s verse in the middle we can win the discussion but when we refuses implementing Quraan on our life we looses even how successful we are. 

Today’s writing is not toned to justify that my faith is clear as crystal. Today’s writing is a confession that my faith is self interest even when I do something good or when I do something bad. It is a confession of a feel that my system is highly affected by the loves that are killing my peace as virus regardless of whatever I achieve or wherever I go to have materialistic glory. 

There are many viruses that affect the soul of human beings. We lie for self interest, we says truth for demolishing other’s interest, we hurt people in our ego, we do injustice with our own self and others to accomplish success, we praise lesser worthy for advantages, we live in sins to enjoy escaping from our pathetic reality, we ignore the rights of people and God on us, we work a life style that make us cool in the eyes of the world, hence we do many things that affect our mass and soul. We always try to find popular ways rather than a right way. 

I see the viruses affecting human beings massively, on the other hand I see Quraan as Antivirus. This is the book that is always helpful in understanding ourselves and others in the light of the Creator’s knowledge. The one who made us is the best to tell us how we have to live and what we have to be. This is the book of objectives; equally this is the book of strategy. I have practiced Quraan in small spells. But whenever I go far from Quraan’s path I lost my peace even by gaining what the world can say the best. 

I coach people in Risk Management that Standard Deviation is the measure of risk also. The more the value of data goes away from the mean the more it has standard deviation [volatility] and the more it keeps risk. But how ignorant I am to understand that the standard of ours is Quraan and the more we keep distance from Quraan in our life the more we expose ourselves to the risks. 

Here the knowledge of Quraan is not enough for a life of glory. The decision of this world and the world hereafter is on “how well we implement it”. But I really feel ashamed that the sinful inner always count on how well the world perceive deeds as good or success. This makes our good deeds corrupt as we are more concern in pleasing the world. The direction matters. And the direction must have to be pleasing Allah. If you are playing soccer so you have to know that you have to record a goal by hitting the ball in opposite net. If you hit a beautiful ball in your own net from the middle of the field, it can not add score for yourself but for others. Sometimes we do good deeds and credit the account of evil in the same way. So simply; the direction matters more than performance herself.

Quraan is calling every Muslim towards his glorious way of life but we are in fear of loosing our fake lifestyles. But how cruel are we who bows down before our conventions, people and lifestyle but it can not even give a true moment of peace and satisfaction. I know my thoughts are too scattered today but it is a point of realization that the time is running out. If it gets over then there will be no way out. I confess that my viruses are creeping to decline a true me in myself and I have no other option than fighting and standing up for my everlasting comfort and success. Do think about yourself before it shall be too late to think and do. Implement Quraan in totality as the knowledge is a mere waste if not implemented in a true spirit.